January 2012
11 posts
I have longed for you since the Beginning of Time
Searched for you high and low
Yearning
Everyday
Every hour
Every minute
You’re the Perfect Dream
And now you’re here
Standing in front of me
I don’t know what to do
For after all those time
Waiting
Searching
I have learned to live without you
You came too late.
You’re still the Perfect Dream
Just not mine...
It wears me out...
Among the things that I promised myself 2 years ago was that I’ll never want to sleep with things unfinished and wake up angry. I don’t want to rush in the morning or be stuck in a malaise rut.
For the past 7 days, I have been doing all the things written above and I’m tired.
If this is a challenge, I’m giving up.
Everything is perfect until you bite into an eggshell
Perfection
Anda sudah cukup sempurna. Mana mungkin ada ruang untuk saya yang retak seribu ini.
I can’t remember how it feels to be in love.
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“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung...”
– C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves. (via 18flyleafs)
December 2011
2 posts
November 2011
8 posts
want vs need
God gives you what you need, not what you want.
But in this case, I don’t need you nor want you. But you everytime I’m with you, I feel a certain sense of comfort, and strangely, complete.
I (selfishly) need that feeling to prolong even when you’re not around.
So, God, how now? (please?)
is trying to remember… :(
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robbed.
He said the gun was pointed at his face.
What is left of life for me had the robber fired that gun?
October 2011
4 posts
Thoughts
I come from a family with ordinary parents— father, a retired public relations officer and mother, a lecturer.
I went to sleep last night thinking how does it feel like waking up/going to bed knowing that your father is a legendary musician or a popular politican or a cruel dictator.
hmmm….
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September 2011
6 posts
hey kamu!
I don’t dream of you. I don’t miss you. I don’t know you. But everytime I ask “Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu?” I secretly wish you’ll say, “Kamu.”
Pilihan
Tuhan itu adil dan baik. Dia sentiasa memberikan pilihan untuk kita. Malam ini, saya memilih untuk keluar dan berkata ‘Tidak’.
I turned 30 last July and I think it’s about time that I pick up a new habit or two or maybe improve myself a little. I always have this weakness, this inability to say ‘No’, especially to good friends and people I have a soft-spot for....
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moving images
Watched a movie with Amelia and she pointed out which part of the movie she thinks was shot in a set or on location.
Watched a movie with Dimzky and music family and they pointed out glitches/awesomeness in dubbing/sound-effects/soundtracking.
These days, when I go to the cinemas and see beautiful shots, I think of how I can translate that into stills.
:)
p/s: go see ‘Guzaarish’....
August 2011
8 posts
co-pilot saya hensem harini. tu je lah. hahaha. baju melayu ftw i tell you.
sekarang, dicari co-pilot utk jasin-kl. kalau boleh bawak orang yang sama memang terbaek .
Nothing I cook or bake turns out well in this house. Nothing.
You Learn
You Learn After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning And company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts And presents aren’t promises, And you begin to accept your defeats With your head up and your eyes open With the grace of a woman, not the...
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quranicverses:
رَبَّنَا لاَ تُزِغْ قُلُوبَنَا بَعْدَ إِذْ هَدَيْتَنَا وَهَبْ لَنَا مِن لَّدُنكَ رَحْمَةً إِنَّكَ أَنتَ الْوَهَّابُ
“Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower.”
saya.
Bayangkan seorang manusia yang dah giveup hidup. Cuba bunuh diri banyak kali, tapi tak berjaya. Tiap-tiap hari dia bangun tanya, “Kenapa aku hidup lagi?” dan tiap-tiap malam dia doa, “Semoga esok tak bangun dah.”
Agaknya macam mana kehidupan orang ni sehari-hari menunggu mati?
:(
Tuhan, aku letih menjadi rapuh seperti ini.
luxury list for today
a) hands to hold
b) house with huge windows
c) pet cats
d) ideas
Sometimes it pains me knowing that you have...
July 2011
10 posts
Lifelong dilemma of work or sleep with the possibilities of sleeping while you work or working in your sleep.
Good morning Dave Grohl. Love you loads.
Bookstore love. Hold my hand there will you?
Scully
My awesome ipod understands me too well. Today on the way home, under shuffle mode, it played me these songs, back to back, in this order::
SCTS- Lights
Adele- Someone like you
Adele- Don’t you remember
Jimmy Eat World- Blister
Payung Teduh- Resah
Reza Salleh- Ocean Spanning Sorrow
The National- England
Ah….
“You both must be a duet. not a trio, or a quartet, or even a quintet.”
But I’m going solo here, Uncle Tan Sri. Any hope?
God have been kind.
I have been forgetful.
I’m sorry.
(but apologizing seems to be the only thing I’ve been doing of late)
WatchKhottal - YMFT (Official Music Video) (by paku tekan)
This song makes me cry. Having it recorded means so much to me, but it’s unfortunate that there’s a lot of kinks to iron out before K can release a proper audio version of it.
Or is that life trying to tell me something? Maybe I’m over-analyzing?
June 2011
1 post
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